A personal blog, mainly text posts, sometimes photos. This is a fandom and personal blog thrown together so beware! Sometimes NSFW

I feel so sick I don’t wanna go into work today but it’s not like I can call in

I finally got to sleep around 4 or 4:30? Only to be woken up two hours later by shouting and noise

It’s after four in the morning and I have to be up for another long day of work at seven again

Put on a mask, maybe paint my smile on and ignore the fresh pain on my hips. Though people will be too busy looking at the giant zit coming in by my nose. If people even notice me actually

what happened to the happy always smiling kristin?

she’s missed i guess. people always said the first thing they notice about me is my smile but i dont really do that much anymore

what if i just disappeared? this worthless excuse for kristin would be gone nobody would have to worry about me anymore. im easily replacable after all, not that theres much to replace anyway, just silence and ugliness

i really wish i could get help like now i really need it

i think its gonna be one of those long nights again

i really dont wanna go into work depressed and mute again. nobody likes me anyway. i actually barely said more than ten sentences within 8 hours today, that’s how shitty i was feeling. and then it only increased when i gave in a finally ate something and i still hate myself for it


heads up

if i ever stop talking to you as much

  • its not you
  • there are a lot of things going on right now and idk what im doing and i often forget the fact that i have friends omfg
  • i still want to be close

if i ever message/text/call/ect you a lot

  • pls let me know bc i dont want to make you uncomfortable or bug you
  • be a Pal; dont let me make an asshat out of myself
  • ps its more than likely because i want to be close


i just remembered a documentary i watched about flamingos and the area they hatch and raise their chicks in are extremely salty so the chicks develop so much crusted salt ont heir legs and makes it really difficult for htem to walk and the entire colony has to make a long migration and i cried watching it cuz the chicks that couldn’t walk were just left behind and looked so sad and they died

yes i cried over baby flamingos! and i cried over baby turtles too! THEYRE FUCKING ADORABLE DONT JUDGE ME. and they get eaten hen theyre hatched if they dont make it to the ocean quickly enough and even then they have a slim chance of survival!

animals make me cry okay? my boss always says i should’ve gone into the vet field instead of culinary cuz every single time i see a cute dog across the street i stop mid sentence or run to the front of the shop to coo over the doggy